up in the same house with you, Robin. Youâre about the bravest person I know. You just have this one little thing.â
âOne little thing? Itâs huge. The idea of singing in front of strangers terrifies me.â I square off in front of her. âAnd except for last night, I never sang anywhere but Granddaddy and Grandmaâs porch.â
âYou sang in the church choir.â
âSure, hiding in the back.â
Eliza crosses her arms with a smirk. âIâm going to England for the summer.â
âW-what? Really?â Smiling, I wrap my sister in a hug. âYouâve always wanted to go to England. Good for you. What will you be doing? How long will you be gone?â
âFour months. I won a fellowship to study English lit at Cambridge, all expenses paid.â
âCambridge. Well, la-de-da.â Howâd she inherit courage while I inherited fear? I take a seat on the bench again, thinking.
âLetâs make this our summer, Robin.â Eliza joins me on the bench. âIâm living my dreamâwell, one of them. Live yours too.â She nudges me with her shoulder. âIâll go to Cambridge, you go to Nashville. Why should Steve and I be the only ones who venture out? Heâs married, a soldier, and a daddy-to-be. Youâre the big sister, the one we looked up to, the one who fought our battles until we could take care of ourselves.â
âTook your whuppings for you.â
Eliza sticks out her tongue. âOnly once, and Iâve never forgiven myself for it.â
I slip my arm around her, and she rests her head against my shoulder. âI couldâve ratted you out, but I knew Daddy would take it easy on me. He suspected you for that mess anyway.â
âShould I confess now?â
I tug a strand of her thick, curly hair. âA little late, donât you think?â
âI suppose,â Eliza says with a grin, propping her chin in her hand. âHow many songs do you have written?â
âA few.â I pick up my guitar and begin to strum softly.
âA few? Right, you had a few when you were sixteen.â
I bump my shoulder against hers. âDonât think I donât see what youâre doing. Provoking me to go to Nashville.â
âCanât blame me for wanting a famous songwriting sister.â
I laugh. âDo you know how many wanna-be songwriters are waiting tables in that city, or perking coffee for some Music Row execs?â
âThey arenât you.â
âForget it, Eliza.â
âLook, just call Skyler. See if you can stay with her.â
âAh, cousin Skyler.â I shake my head. âLast time I talked to her, she was busy with her new job. Plus, she has a roommate.â
âSo, you know Skyler, Robin; sheâd love to help. You two were thick as thieves growing up. Andââ Eliza wags her finger at me. ââsheâs an entertainment lawyer, for crying out loud. Connections, my sister. Connections.â
âYou want to give Momma a heart attack? You flying over the Big Pond to live for the summer and me moving to Nashville. And Steve in harmâs way overseas.â
Eliza hops off the bench. âForget about Momma, will you?â She grabs my hand, so I stop playing. âShe had her day with the Lukeman Sisters, but she gave it up to marry Daddy. If she doesnât want you to try because she didnât, then too bad.â
âAll right, Miss Cambridge, what if I donât make it? Then what? Come home with my guitar tucked between my legs?â
âWhat if you do make it? What if you deal with the restlessness in your soul and be who God made you to be? Robin, youâve had four jobs since you graduated high schoolâa vet tech, a cashier, a clerk at the courthouse, and a stocker at Willabyâs. You liked them when you started, but six months later you talked of doing something else. You tried two