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beauty mark, sir,” I say with pretend indignation. I r un into the bathroom and he starts to get dressed. When I return h e pulls me close. 
    “I like the way y ou smell of vanilla and roses. I like the way you look in the hazy morning , still asleep , with your hair spilling over your pillow a nd your limbs so soft and embraceable . I like the way you respond to my kisses when you’re still not awake. And most of all, I love hearing you moan when we make love. ” He begi n s nuzzling my ear and neck and I heave a gentle sigh and I wrap my arms around him .
    “Jay, there’s only a wee k left, not even that, really; I leav e early Sunday morning.” I pulled away from him to look at his face. 
    “What can I say? ” He looks at me with a funny expression. “I can count.” 
    I c an feel tears welling up so I turn, walk to the bed , and si t down.  Jay follows me. “Kate, I’ve got to shave . We can talk about this tonight but no matter what we say it means good-bye.”
    “So this is just a summer fling to you?” I say angrily .
    “You know it isn’t…n ot for me o r for you. But, Kate , can I ask you to give up your fancy li fe in Manhattan and live here? Or would you want me to leave m y very humble studio and move to a place where I don’t belong? Let’s be real Kate. It won’t work. I’d do anything to keep you here if you would be happy , but I know in a few months you’d miss your old lifestyle. ” 
    He goes to the bathroom and I craw l under the covers and weep. Before he leaves for work, he squats by the bed, brushes asid e my hair and kisses my mouth. “I love you. L et’s make the most of these days, Kate,” he whispers.
    “Yeah, I’ve got to s ee the glass half full, right?” I smile through my tears. “I promise I’ll be in a better mood tonight.” I squeeze his hand. “ We could never marry anyway, I know that.”
    “What? Who mentioned marriage?”
    “I know you would only marry a Hopi so your children would be part of her clan.”
    Jay stands and sits on the bed. “Katie, I was married to a Hopi. It didn’t work.” He plays with my hair. “Truthfully, I haven’t wanted to repeat that mistake.” He bends to kiss me and gives me a slight smile . “I have to go.” H e departs quickly .
    A lone in his studio I wonder how this story w ill end. Could I just leave in a couple of days and never look back?   R ealistically, would I be happy with a life here? Just looking at all my purchases around the tiny space , I kno w I wo uld n’t. I w ill be constantly changing Jay’s life to look like mine … n ot a good thing at all. I ’d want a bigger apartment in a trendy town. I ’ d want all new furniture. I’d want marriage. I’d want…I’d want…I’d want!
    I kno w , too , that this kind of love doesn’t ha ppen often. Would I regret leaving Jay all my life? My gut say s yes and I begi n crying again. Maybe I’m just a foolish romantic!
    B eing honest I have to admit he’s right. I just ca n’t give up my N ew Y ork lifestyle and my job either . I have worked so har d to get this position. I want a career; I enjoy my profession. I heave a great sigh and r ealize how selfish I really am . I f things do n’t fit into my plan s, well, I ca n ’t bend. Damn, this is more than I can handle .
    Jay comes in about 5:30 carrying a bouquet of sun flowers. He takes me in his arms and embraces me. “It’s a beautiful night for a ride up in to the mountains . I know the pe rfect place for a picnic. Do we have any food or should we get take out?”
    “I’ll have to change from a skirt into pants but that will only take a few minutes. Look in the fridge, t here sho uld be enough things to take for grazing . There’s some chees e, grapes, left over cold-cuts. Hmm, crackers and bread are in the cabinet. Oh, tak e out the tomatoes and lettuce. We’ll have t o buy beer . But how are we going to carry it all?”
    “Don’t worry, I’ll pack it. I’ve carried more than