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bunker and burn it, of course. No, we don ’ t do that. But you get my meaning. It ’ s endlessly renewable, usable without diminishing one ’ s capacity to create more. The author falls asleep shortly after he becomes drunk. The author has sex without condoms. The author falls asleep when he ’ s drunk having sex without condoms. There. That ’ s something. You have something. But what do you have!
    1.2) The Easy and Unconvincing Nihilistic Poseurism Re: Full Disclosure of One ’ s Secrets and Pain, Passing It Off Under a Semi-high-minded Guise When in Fact the Author Is Himself Very Private About Many or Most Matters, Though He Sees the Use in Making Certain Facts and Happenings Public
    i.3) The Fact That, Below, or Maybe Next to,
    the Self-righteousness, and the Self-hatred,
    Is a Certain Hope, Instilled Far Before Any
    of This Happened.
    There will also be these threads, which are all more or less self-explanatory:
    j) The Flouting of Sublimation as Evidence of Enforced Solipsism Aspect
    k) The Solipsism as Likely Result of Economic, Historical and Geopolitical Privilege Aspect
    l) The Toph Dialectic: He Serving as Both Inspiration for and Impediment to Writing of Memoir
    m) The Toph Dialectic II: He Serving as Both Magnet and, When the Need Arises, Wedge Vis-a-Vis Relations with Women
    Similarly:
    n) The Parental Loss Dialectic: in Terms of That Factor Lending Itself Well to Situations Necessitating the Garnering of Sympathy and Also to Those Requiring a Quick Exit
    Not to mention:
    o) The Aspect Concerning the Unavoidability, Given the Situation with Brother, of Near-Constant Poignance
    p) The Self-aggrandizement as Art Form Aspect
    q) The Self-flagellation as Art Form Aspect
    r) The Self-aggrandizement Disguised as Self-flagellation as Even Higher Art Form Aspect
    s) The Self-canonization Disguised as Self-destruction Masquerading as Self-aggrandizement Disguised as Self-flagellation as Highest Art Form of All Aspect
    t) The Search for Support, a Sense of Community, If You Will, in One ’ s Peers, in Those One ’ s Age, After One Looks Around and Realizes That All Others, All Those Older, Are Either Dead or Perhaps Should Be Aspect
    u) The Fact That T) Dovetails Quite Nicely with
    G) ASPECT
    Or, in graph form (next page):
    THE DEATHS
    MUCH THINKING
    ABOUT THE TRIUMPH
    OF HUMAN SPIRIT
    IN PARTICULAR,
    the incredible,triumphant rise of the Eggers brothers
    IN GENERAL,
    the triumph (or at least potential) of youth, and its preferentially over the aged and infirm
    WANTING TO SAVE FRIENDS AND PEERS FROM DYING QUIETLY NEEDING, in lieu of extended family, this idea of “ community ” from peers
    Etc.
    MUCH THINKING ABOUT THE INEVITABILITY OF DECAY, AND
    EARLY AND RANDOM DEATH, AND THE SHORT LIFE OF ANYTHING REAL OR BEAUTIFUL
    IN WAKE OF
    LOSS, desperate attempt to hold things together
    CARELESSNESS BORN OF HOPELESSNESS
    Sometime-failure to use condoms
    CONSTANT CONTACT W/ GRADE SCHOOL FRIENDS FREQUENT CARNAL CONTACT WITH GRADE SCHOOL FRIENDS DUE TO
    environmental factors in upbringing, innate sense that ideas of “ community ” are silly and soft
    CONVENIENT
    belief that sexual contact with peers and grade school friends strengthens this idea of “ community ”
     
    Note: The above is actually part of a much larger chart, 18 ” X 24 ” (though not to scale), which maps out the entire book, mostly in type too small to read. It was supposed to be included with your purchase, but you know how these publishing companies are. It is instead available through the mail, at the address listed elsewhere in this section. The cost is $5. You will not be disappointed. Unless you are usually disappointed, in which case this will be yet another disappointment.
    The author would also like to acknowledge what he was paid to write this book:
    TOTAL (GROSS) . .........................$100,000.°°
    DEDUCTIONS
    Agent ’ s fee (15%).........................$15,000.°°
    Taxes (after agent ’ s